From the category archives:

Being God

The lesson of a cedar tree

by Pausha Foley on August 25, 2010

The cedar grove is very quiet. Not silent – there are birds singing their songs, there is wind playing in the branches, little furry creatures scurrying through dry pine needles and pieces of bark, but all those sounds do not disturb the quiet stillness. Old trees, trees that stood there for hundreds of years, with their massive trunks scarred by burns and cuts – they are quiet, they communicate, they relate in the quiet, still space. They hold it and create it. This is how they are.

And when you sit under those trees the quiet sips into you and enfolds you, and you become part of it. You become the holder of the quiet space, though not a silent space. There are sounds, but there is no noise anymore, not inside. Trees speak to you, and you become like trees. Quiet. [click to continue…]

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Life IS incredible

by Pausha Foley on August 6, 2010

My husband told me today that I have an incredible life.

“Pausha, you have an incredible life” he said, “you work very little, and when you do, your work is the making of pretty pictures. You have a husband who loves you unbearably much, and you are an inspiration to your friends. You live in the most beautiful place, right in nature, and you have an access to a cabin in the mountains, and you have a horse. Your life is incredible”.

“Life IS incredible, for everyone”, I said, “only people make too much noise to notice”.

“You make plenty of noise”, said my husband.

“Yes I do, outside”, I said, “but I don’t make much noise inside”.

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One Hundred Impossible Ideas in a Hundred Days

by Pausha Foley on June 19, 2010

100. There is no such thing as “impossible”

99. We are present to the fact that the life is our life, that the reality is our reality to do with as we please, because we are really present to ourselves, as ourselves.

98. Whatever trauma, fear, pain is there to stop us from being fully who we are – we don’t let it.

97. Enlightenment is not the end of the journey, rather it’s the very first step.

96. We have ideas, ideas don’t have us. We create explanations and reasons, they do not create us. We are the storytellers who spin the stories.

95. We enjoy the company of people with whom we have nothing in common. [click to continue…]

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It’s not love if it hurts

May 29, 2010

I love the “Ally McBeal” TV show. I’ve been watching it back in Poland, and I am watching it again now. It’s about many things, this show, but mostly it is about love. Or what is called love. Or what is considered love.
I watched an episode last night. It was about people wanting to get [...]

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Faces of Wisdom – Wonderland

May 25, 2010

To understand wonderland we first have to enter it. To understand who we are we first have to be who we are, to understand God we first have to experience God, to understand nature we first have to be nature. And when we fully are, fully experience, fully open, fully being – then the need [...]

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Impossible Ideas

May 25, 2010

My writing changes, I realized recently. How I express myself in writing changes. 70 days ago I begun to imagine impossible ideas every morning, and things shifted. Where before an idea would open and develop into a story, now a story seems to condense and distill into an idea.
Where before I would write an essay [...]

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Autoportrait

May 13, 2010

I drew my face the other night. It’s not an easy task, not for me anyway. It was hard, frustrating, challenging and delightful. I stared at my face in the mirror, stared at what was supposed to be my face on the page, at lines, shapes, curves, shadows, highlights, at the marks my pencil made [...]

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We can have it all

May 4, 2010

Tuesday’s impossible idea: things that come easily and without effort are worth having, we don’t need to risk getting killed to get stronger, we don’t need privations to develop character, we don’t need to sacrifice to be good, we don’t need to suffer to appreciate happiness, we don’t need pain to grow, we don’t need [...]

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The Sin of Selfishness

May 3, 2010

“Some people help others just to make themselves feel better than they really are.”
I read this sentence and thought: “helping others only to make yourself feel better is not a good thing. It is selfish, it’s cheating, manipulation. It is wrong to want something for yourself. The real, praiseworthy and honorable deed, is the one [...]

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Action – Reaction

April 17, 2010

My husband and I had dinner last night in a little restaurant, right on the beach. It was a late evening, the sun was setting and the ocean glowed, blue and green with golden highlights. There were misty cliffs at the far end of the beach, there were little children playing in the sand, there [...]

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