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Being God

How did I learn what I know?

May 29, 2011

How did I learn what I know? What teachers did I work with? What books have I read? What workshops have I attended? I can tell you all this, I can tell you the stories of my life but they will give you nothing at all. How did I learn what I know… I learned [...]

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No!

May 1, 2011

Stories, series of stories told by people who know how to live, who know the rules, who follow the rules. I read about the rules as I stretch my arm … “No, this is not how you stretch your arm!”, says the rule “this is wrong, you have to do it like that!”… I move, [...]

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I am with you

April 19, 2011

I woke up too early. There were noises around me, water running into the bathtub, birds singing their morning songs, dogs joining in the chorus with spirited barking. I did not open my eyes, I did not want to enter the day just yet. In the hazy, undefined space I felt love … it didn’t [...]

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I don’t need to understand

April 3, 2011

Christopher sits in front of me. He is angry, angry at how I’ve been, at how I talked, at how I behaved. He talks and talks and talks. An endless litany of words that push me, poke me, assault me. My mouth pressed together into a thin, angry line, my body rigid. I stare at [...]

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My Body of Earth

March 26, 2011

Uniqueness I can hear the word Uniqueness I think it In this fog, in this soft, warm and undefined sleepiness my eyes are heavy, my thoughts rapid and insistent. Uniqueness Stay with this word, with the sound. It tries to escape me, but it never runs too far, never too fast, flimsy and elusive like [...]

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